Randy Dandy.

Its time for some Christmasey post.

For some backgrounds, I do not have any christmas tree at home for Christmas after the broken of the previous one, which I supposed many many years ago. As for this year, no apprearance of the tree as well. hmm. However Bill's house has one, with many many presents underneath.

Christmas Eve was as ordinary as ever. Church carried its usual tradition of the Eve Dinner participated by all the members at a chinese restaurant. Pretty well done, really. The performances did a good job entertaining the guests. Gah, the food was a goodie. I starved whole day for it and I'm not disappointed.

Met up with Jane Nic Kee Mou and Yl @ Tjantek after that. We had awesome time of chilling with the frenchfries and chats. Nothing better than irritating Jane, its been awhile! Had great laughs and countdowned for Christmas.

Moving on. We joined Bill and the rest @ Checkers. Came along Kim and gf. Whole night of cool musics, fags and beers. Bb won pool tournament, and I won luckydraw on their behalfs. Wee, what a night!

Christmas Day starts with morning service in Church. Truckloads of performances and free buffet lunch. hmm..mm. Went over Bill's place to watch some jackie-cowboy-chan show and to help run some errands. And then Oldtown with Kee, Mou, Wong, Jane and Charis. I took a long nap after I came home, because the big night awaits!

The night shouts paartaay! Table full of mouth watering food! From satays to pastas..and turkey! which sadly i missed )= .. irresistable can! Ah, the pingpangwah started. Downed with two big bottles of liqour and n cans of beers. Not to mention the embarassing moments of the drunkards.. clean.sweep.mop.

mean. nic.

drunk bill.

mean. charis.

bill. mom.

joel. esther.nic. mean. esther.
mom. mou. yl.
hashan. wong.
drinks.
kev. jan. sujean.
jan. mean
bb. me.

mr pink. nic.

p/s: To Jane, you missed the fun!

You Who?

I would like to say, sorry for the photo-less post, again and again. It must be terribly boring eh? I have yet to gather back the bits and pieces of my poor camera. The cam is with Nic, the charger and battery are currently with Mou and I only have a plain cable in my hand. Sigh, poor camera.


Christmas is happening in a matter of days! Planning for a Christmas present shopping tomorrow, which is kind of a rush actually. The list is almost complete, good luck pressie-hunting tomorrow to me! Know what, I'm happy again! As for the reason w-h-y, it shall remain a secret. *winks* There isnt many reasons why a girl could be happy so, guess. =p


I went for my first driving lesson today. It turned out way alot better than I'd expected. sapsapsui lar. You must be thinking ''Man, you are like a year late!''. Gah, I am..I am for certain reasons. And I regretted for it! Knowing the feeling of no transport around, even in a small Kuantan, ttteeerrriibbbleee indeed. Otherwise, count yourself lucky.

My last night here for you,

same old songs, just once more.

My last night here with you?

maybe yes, maybe no.

I kind of liked it your way,

how you shyly placed your eyes on me.

Did you ever know,

That I had mine on you.

I revived my phone.

I arrived at Kuantan just today. Omgomg, I drove back leh, well part of the journey. Haha. Everyone was wide awake and pretty much tensed when I'm driving. That is because I have yet to get my license yet nor been to my first driving class. =p He knew I'm gonna brag about it. We went for lekor, chickenchop and saimailou at the beach around 6plus. Hobo-hobo, I'm stuffed! My last visit..godknwswhen. -_-"
I was so tired that I slept right after that.

Another thing is, I collected my results today. I did not really plan to see any of my classmates, so I could ignore the eagerness ''hows yours'' and knowing you did better/bad-er(?!) that one-kind ''oh i see''. So, I decided to go today. (erm it was out yesterday fyi) Nah, I still met one or two.

Should I announce my score here? like, must I... -_-" All I can say is that it was just average. Not very suprising to me, not very satisfying as well. It barely gets me anywhere with the course that I intended to do. You know what is the worst thing? I got no backup plans. )= Kepochis (if you are one) , ask me la, console me can.

Shopping-on-the-go! I'm so broke, once again. No, I was broke all along, says Bill. Remember how much I praise online boutiques, not that good afterall. See. Whenever purchases add up eg. 71bucks, the smallest note atm could receive is ten. It means that I have to bank it a total of 80. Change of 9 will return along with the parcel. One buck also cannot discount meh. -_-"

Does anyone watches RachaelRay? Its a cooking show. Its on ntv7 (i think) at 2am. They are still doing Febuary episodes, goodness gracious, slow can. Haha. Being owl-like (not godlike, haha) in kl, yeah I love her. Not forgetting MarthaS. *whisper* Bf gonna do CulinaryArts, wat to do. =p

#1 Countdown to Christmas: 5days.
Get ready your big red socks. I already got mine. And, be nice. (=

#2 I forseen uncertainties ahead. Where my future is a total blurness,
I'm afraid I would trip somewhere, somehow.

#3 Happy belated Birthday to Justin, Keanwai and XiangYong.

#4 Oi, selling SAM books! Complete and Cheap! Grab fast!

last # Happy 10 months together bb. We managed it.

A quote from Jerry McGuire, "You Complete Me"

Baby,

I'm sorry for being such a jerk
but
I guess sorry is never enough.
Nowadays, nothing falls in place..
Nothing.. Not even "us".
Tan Boon Mean..
The thought of losing you for good scares me.
I was paranoid.
Don't you realize you're a part of me now?
I need you and I love you..
Please don't write me off just yet.
take care boo boo.

bill.

Its definately very easy for you to point out my flaws and weaknesses. My whole journey with you aint only mistakes right? How bout the rest? Think about it.

I have to say, you are being too comfortable in this relationship. You demanded for an ultra makeover in me. Reason is to suit you of course. So that you wont feel the slightest uneasy-ness. How would I feel? Think about it.

You claimed that you currently have alot in mind, very stressed up. Hoping I wont be another burden for you. Burden? Since when love is a burden? Think about it.

A million sighs wont be able to express how disappointed I am at you. *roll eyes*

december eleventh

First meal of the day was dimsum at somewherenearby together with YX. Since I'm still on for my diet plan, I ate awfully little compared to the usual. Sigh.

Then, the rest of the day was spent at The Curve-Street-Cineleisure. All we do is just walking around while waiting for Kev Joel Joji Matt. Your highness being completely indecisive between the movies, at last we went in Borders, sit down on the carpet and watch KungFuPanda with the rest of the kids.

Yeay, kids. -_-". come on, I personally love kids kay.

So that makes the three of us, being strangely looked at. No la, after that we went to the theater for TheDayWhenTheEarthStoodStill. blardy long name. Dinner was at WinterWarmers.

It sounded warm indeed, out of the heavy downpour. There's a very nice liveband which bb was very tempted to grab their guitar and sing-along. Uber cuteness, aint it. The boys planned for MOS after that and ta-da.

I miss those time when we literally live together.

Happy 20th Birthday sweetheart <3

The Eve

We arrived at OU around 1.30pm. While waiting for bb to reach, I followed the mom to do some shopping at British India. Man, he took like forever to reach, I was so jumpy. To my horror, he showed up with a rather shocking hairstyle. wakaka. We had lunch at Good Evening Bangkok. It was pretty nice overall, despite all the bullets of nags into his face. =p All of us went on our separate ways to shop after that. Did I mentioned that shopping time was awesome? Well, of course! =p Dinner was at Fatty Crabs. I missed that place so much, aye friends? =)

We headed home right after bidding good bye to the family. With much anticipation, he opened his pressies before even waiting for his actual birthday. Well, I bought him a guitar, as requested. hmm. I supposed he would like it very much, not until the enjoyment lasted him so short. It was then sitted beside his EX guitar, on the floor. Sigh. Kepohchis arrived, Matt and Nich. And they came up with the most brilliant idea that is to Blitz! '' oh great. '' I told Bill this would reminisce the time we used to have in FTZ. hee. It was until 4am we went home. Sleep! Finally.

Home Sweet Home!!

Thought 1
I have been home for two full weeks. It has been a good time with the family and friends. Life now is so carefree, nothing better than resting before the start of another new year. I am currently taking up driving lessons. Hopefully in no time, I can repay my drivers after so long of utangs. =p '' gear 1.. clutch.. then gear 2... '' right mou?

Thought 2
High school friends are still as awesome as ever! The love is so overwhelming. Thank you much for the suprise party at After7! To everyone, millions of hugs and kisses. I'm 18, finally. fuuu.
In my days in Kuantan, been out for many yc sessions with the lovely people. Its nice to know that the internal jokes and teases were not forgotten.

Thought 3
Sayangs from KL are back! at last. Yes, Jane and Nicole! To Jane: Kee irritated me because you were not around. *stress* To Nicole: Story-telling time!! *gossips* To both: Oh how I miss our midnight A&W moments. *aww..*

Thought 4
I will be going down KL tomorrow to see bb! His birthday is coming soon by the way. Oh loves!
It has been weeks since I last see him. Suprise me, suprise you. (=

Thought 5
Have you ever thought of doing something crazy? No? With no certainty of the consequences, gather up all the guts and just go for it. Something like now-or-never kind of scene. The kick sure feels fun. (= At least there is no regrets left behind.

Thought 6
I need a wardrobe makeover. Right bb?
Red light for my laziness.
I love my nails, I know you do too. =p

Thought 7
Christmas is coming! My favourite decorated trees... beautiful pressies...
*stares and dreams*

Silver Bells

I am currently addicted to online boutiques.

Nothing better than doing what a girl do best, shopping that is.

Try thinking no more fuss taking off and putting back clothes for fittings,

no more need to carry big and small bags around,

somemore at a lower price, who can resist, you tell me.

And now, because of that, I'm so broke. )=

I'll be seeing my bb in seven days!

happy birthday baby.

I'm sorry baby.
Being with you is the best thing that ever happened to me.
You know you'll never have to fight for me,
mainly because you'll always have me.
I love you my little birthday girl.
I really do.


We're perfect
together







How can i be complete without you next to me.


Happy Birthday
Baby



Forever yours,
bill.

....sigh....

'' You only stick with me for my friends. ''
'' You only stick with me for my name. ''
'' I doubt you ever love me before. ''
'' You are the worst girlfriend ever. ''
'' You are just being a bitch. ''

Imagine that.

Maybe I'm not good in putting it into sentences, that supposed to come out from my mouth over the phone. Thats why I kept silent. Maybe you didnt notice, I'm not blind of feelings. I am very hurt deep down. I am sorry if you are sick of my egoness, my immaturity, or just me. You should know me by now, I thought. I am sorry if what I did all these months are nothing and shits to you. You always acclaim of what you did for me, how much you did for me, all the troubles you went through for me. Just like you are the - - - - est between the two of us. Never came across your mind that I, actually sacrificed too? I guessed not. I promised to change but not expect it overnight.
These two days, I acknowledged the incidents at its least severity. I dont understand why is it a breaking point for both of us. '' A broken promise is a broken promise, '' you said. I am still unable to figure out, why is there no more compassion, no more love. '' I'm the one always come back to you, saying sorry. I'm tired, and about to burst. '' I broke a promise, you felt inferior. I got all the nasty words in my face, all the while I kept quite not? I bare it down not? I'm the one about to burst, I'm the one tired. Ultimately, I'm the one hurt.
I choosed to be bounded, to be controled over, to be ordered, to be everything you want me to be.

You asked me to win you back.
You asked me to fight for you.
Despite everything,
I will win you back. I will fight for you.

.....its because I truly love you.

These photos were taken at the last night during my

stay in Subang, which, wasnt very long ago. And

mymy, I missed them so very much already. =/

It was a sumptious dinner at Tony Roma's, since

its a post exam celebration for myself and miss Jane.

Had lots of fun with the fitting sessions before dinner,

but some broke people decided not buying the funs.

Unfortunately Bunbun was not feeling very well

that night. He only ordered caesar salad.

Over the phone he said he is going to be late for an

hour for the dinner, then I was pretty upset.

So happened that I came out of the fitting room

in Forever21, he was already waiting outside, aww

not only that, he also bought me that piece that I wanted!

Man, I was thrilled!

It was only nine and we planned to sleep already. Lol.

He ate the pasta I cooked for him when he woke up hungry.

But he did not finish it. =(

And now, I'm sick like toot toot.

'' honey, i wan cuddle.. ''

one stop shop

I WANT TO SELL MY BOOKS.

Its TAYLOR'S SOUTH AUSTRALIA MATRICULATION programme,

SAM in short.

Consist of GENERAL SCIENCES subjects-

BIOLOGY, PHYSICS, MATHEMATHICS, CHEMISTRY,

compulsory ENGLISH as SECOND LANGUAGE and MORAL.

Comes with - COMPLETE SET OF NOTES (except Chem, my treasure)

and PASSYEARS PAPERS.

That Is All You Need

Price negotiable. Promote please? (=

It takes time

Me Myself and I: YES! Finals is sooo ooovvverrr.

I'm so glad that finals was actually over. It feels good as though putting down tons of rocks weight of burden. My my, it sure feels damn syok. What feels better than lepaking around kl with the most loved and beloveds. Watched all the movies in 2days! Madagascar2, The Coffin, HSM3, and 007.

Prom comes approx. a week after finals. I only start preparing two days ahead. Apparently not only me, but number of them did not start early either. It was kind of a rush, but I just manage to pull it through, getting the basics.

Prom was awesome, despite the gathering with my fellow classmates, the performances was ookay because my table wasnt infront, I'm not very tall, and I'm having blur sight that night. Hmm. Man, the food was delicious. I starved the whole day for it, so I think it better be good. And I can say, it's worth the starving! Or maybe I'm just overly hungry.

mean: Oi Nics, lets take pics before we go down!
nics: Oh kay! walking to the mirror.
mean: Oh Sharks!
nic: never charge lehhh.
mean: fully charged okay...forgot the memory stick, stucked in my lappie.
ahh, GREAT. *sulks*
nics: -_-".............

Sad la, finally I finished my SAM programme. So short and its now history. Dang.
Not to mention the coming future is yet to be clear......

And I'm back in Kuantan! (= / )=
I missed BunBun the most! And the rest second most. =P

Loves.

I'm trying

im trying to understand you.
i hope in time i will know u inside out.
you're angry now..
i dont wanna stay home beside you because we will quarrel over nothing..
will come back with your icy cold spritzer..
i love you honey.

i love to wear t-shirt.

That time of the month, again...
Last Saturday was the 18th of October!

Can you believe it?

Its none other than our 8th month anniversary.

We made it such a remarkable day to be remembered.

Didnt we, hunny?
Never once we failed to celebrate it together every
month, rainy or stormy.

This time at Canton Bay, Sunway Pyramid.

The ch'ng restaurant

Dining with us White: Richard & Jane

Black: Bill & Mean

Yarr, Mixed: Nicholas & Nicole

... while waiting for food to arrive,we whored a lil. I know, Bill is so adorable! ...

The food was good, not as much as the gathering. Yeay. However, it wasnt really enough of fatfat, so we decided to hop over to SushiKing to fill another quarter of fatfat's tummy. So did I.

SushiKing

with mouthfull of sushi.

Soon enough when Nicole arrived...

After dinner, we carried our big tummy, dropped by BerryPassion for berrillicous desserts take-away and went Archade for Daytona. ..guys. That wasnt the end, we went for another two rounds of Bowling and a more late night movie, MaxPayne.

We came out from the mall around 1:30am. Ahhh, late eh?? But noooo, some people want to play pool before going back Kuantan. We headed RackCafe and spent another one and a half hour playing foosball and pool. Yeah, outing marathon. wee. That ended the awesome night/morning. (=

P/S: i XO you.

Rat-a-tat-tat

Its been a while eh? Gawd, finals is just around the corner.
Say, two weeks? Ridz say 300 hours more. -_-''

Being the nicest meangirl in the neighbourhood, ME,

decided to update some happenings to whoever readers,

despite the fact that I urgently needed to stuuuudy.

Last Thursday was an ordinary classday. Well,

not until everyone in class catch a sight of Valerie

wearing a spaghetti to coll, that is!!!!

Definately a jaw-drop, a wooo, a weeu-weet.

She thus, became star-of-the-day.

Its exclusive, its once-in-a-century kind of thing.

me: I'm not exagerating, seriously.

Let me present to you. Val. freaking A19 in ESL.

Thats me and Val.

Kahmun&Mean: We Love Val !

Arvend. Someone naughty. tsk tsk tsk.

So Soon?

What a week of holidays to unwind! All those breakfast,

lunch, noontea, dinner and of course supper have definately

fed me well. Not to forget those boundless time where I spent

in front of the tele, oh-so-relaxing. Suprisingly I have not been

out busy meeting with friends very much this time, even

though the books I brought back was totally untouched.

Arrival of monday (today) was not much anticipated. Never been any tougher days than today where I have to receive all results of five subjects. And that involves emotional challenges. How much heartaches the aftermath of getting the big T-errible results caused. ahhh. dont ask about it.

I said Dont Ask.

So many things await me to plan, to arrange, to inform and to accomplish. Then again, most importantly, to start. How now? You couldnt just ask me to get out from my comfy bed where I just nicely tucked myself in and start doing those things that I'm obsolutely clueless about.

So much for this do-it-yourself world. Sigh.

I know i'm not the same

I dont need a fortune nor care about fame,

My soul is a burning flame,

Cant sleep the whole night through,

since I laid my eyes on you.

Eyes on me

After a much fierce battle against exam stresses,
I have to say, I'm now FREE!!
So relieved that I have to crack my brain to fill my
afternoon plans.
Nowadays, I practically wakes up and sleeps after twelve.
Funny thing is, is Bill who calls me up. Imagine that.
What a carefree life I'm living, just that it will
only last more another week. Seven days to be exact.
Yes, and sigh. And
the next round of rest is nowhere in sight, yet.


I have been spending ample time with hubby, as he got
off for a couple of days during the weekend.
He will be start working tomorrow.
Hasnt been stable like before, unlikely to miss some
fights and arguements in between the days.
So many times we were tempted to give up
once and for all, but thank god things never happen,
seeing how far we're have made it today, wouldnt
be too silly to succumb and waste all that efforts.

Despite that some of us had fallen apart,
unfortunately.

Still running and still learning from each other,
hopefully its just a tinnie wave for us to jump through
together, hand in hand.

" you better dont jeling me..

it makes me vomit...

see cock ah see..

but still,

you make me SMILE. =p "

By Bill.

I will be going back kuantan tmr. Feel free to
ask Bill out. I promise I wont be jealous. winks.


Birthdays Announcement. (belated)

Happy Birthday to Richard and Kahmun.
24th of Sept.

He's too busy working.

Just a small announcement.

TRIALS IS ON THIS FREAKING MONDAY.

yeah, no big.

),,=

Something from Coll.

Shh, it pretty late now and I'm not allowed to be
anywhere near here!

Freaking Trials is in nine9sembilanjiuu days time!

And I'm waaaaay far from 'well prepared'.

So you see..

Quoted from Nic :

'' How now? Damn stress la! Eh, if i get this.. this..

then plus that..times this..then minus that...''

We went Naili's for dinner in Taipan.

Its just opposite Starbucks.

A nice place to dine. Has a very beach theme.

As for the food...typically so-so, and so is the price.

Its fairly good place for couples who are willing to

spend bitsy more money to get better food with

an inordinary atmosphere, know, rather than

tajing everyday.

Screw that part that we argued.

We bought this dvd Rouge back to chill and watch.

It was a guddie gudgud. Damn chi gek.

I might just wanna pick up swimming after

watching that crap.

Bby is fast asleep beside me now. He must be

exhausted after all those phone calls.

Poor fellow. Uuh, its Saturday tommorow!

In his brain now...

'' Good afternoon sir, this is Bill speaking, may I

help you..? ''

'' Good morning maam, this is Biii......I......*snores*.....

p/s: This Sunday spells c-a-n-d-l-e-s!